I tell my husband that I need to blog everyday, but I cannot do it everyday. There are apparently rules for effective blogging, and I follow none of them. Here are some things I learned on Pinterest about blogging that I totally fail at.
1. Blog consistently. – I have a chronic illness. I never know what the day will bring, and I suffer from anxiety, meaning some days I cannot put myself out there. It’s too hard. I’m too worried about what people will think or say. Recent newsworthy events show me I am not alone in my struggles with anxiety and depression, but there are many that think I should keep it to myself.
2. Use visuals. – I suck at drawing and have no clue how to create graphics. It is something I am learning, but I don’t even know how to use my camera well. I also managed to delete many of my current photos while trying to get my computer to work, and so I am out of luck.
3. Be positive. – My life is HARD! I have multiple medical conditions, we are declaring bankruptcy, my son is autistic and has ADHD. Where in all that do I get the time, money or ability to have happy family trips, simple craft days, or any of the other fun mommy blogging stuff. Not to mention the fact that we failed at adopting, and I cannot have any more kids, and I can’t keep a job so my husband works two or more.
So, here’s the sum-up. I want this blog to be interesting and full of graphics and stuff you can use. It won’t be. At least not always, and I need to be okay with that, and I will find new readers if you aren’t okay with that. Thing is, being something I am not only makes everyone miserable. There are so many blogs that have fun crafts and recipes. That isn’t me. It might be me sometime, but right now we are illness, autism, school issues, money trouble, and a whole lot of other day-to-day not so fun drama. I spent the weekend in the hospital for a urinary tract infection that I have had for months! The antibiotics I have been given are making me sick and tired. Plus I have chronic migraines that just make the rest of the world so much fun. I want to be the happy homemaker. I am not. I can only blog my truth, and I pray that there is an audience, and a purpose to this suffering. I will have a ton more on the medical side at my new blog Medical Soup.
I have a lot to say about medicine and what I have learned, but it isn’t going to be here. Here is the more emotional, family related struggle. Here are my happy days, and my sad days. I realized that no one can read my blog if I don’t write, so I will write, and we will see. If don’t write, I don’t have a blog. It won’t be happy, and it can’t be perfect, but nobody is, and any blog or person who seems that way is filtering. I lack a filter. 🙂 Thanks for being loyal readers, and look forward to giveaways and other fun stuff to come.